Goodbye 18, Hello 19!

18 was very.. um interesting to say the least. Last year was extremely rough for me, but it taught so many things. Up until a few months ago I solely focused on all that I've lost this year. I mean 18 did indeed take a lot from me. At the beginning of the year, I was on cloud nine expecting a year like no other. Well that's exactly what I got. The most traumatic thing that has ever happened to me was brought up, picked apart, and ridiculed. I lost a friendship I thought I'd have forever... those friends then became enemies. My father and I's relationship disintegrated, and then not to mention COVID. Yeah a lot. However after many bruises, three suicide attempts, and a lot of tears I made it another year. As I said 18 took a lot from me, but I gained much more than I lost. As my previous friendships ended chaotically, I met exactly who I was looking for. God fearing friends who know and love everything about me. My weaknesses and my strengths, my fears and my triggers, everything. Friends whom I trust, and who trust me. I received the woman whom I call my guardian angel, my second mom, and my mentor. The one person who pushed me to want better for myself. A bonus uncle and aunt who gives me love and guidance, while holding me accountable. Last but certainly not least , the Techkeyz Network Foundation. A bonus family that has given me all the tools and support I need to make change for myself. At 18 years old, I faced the people that haunted me for the past 4 years, shared my story and sent them to prison. I stood up to my father and mended my relationships with my family. I decided I wanted to live, and I meant it. I'm not all the way there yet but I've learned to stand up for myself and use my voice. I learned what it means to be quiet but not silent, and now I'm here. Some of my days are still rough but I'm genuinely happy. So I thank God for 18. How be ever, 19 will be nothing like last year. This year... is my year.